So apparently my friend thinks that compared to extrovert people, introvert people tend to have deeper conversation with each other.
I never really gave any thought about that before, as I always felt jealous about how easy extrovert people could start socializing with other people.
Perhaps now I can be a bit more grateful to be myself (not that I really like staying introvert).

That time when you read what you wrote over and over again to make sure you didn't say anything stupid, just because they haven't replied you yet..

It is sad how people stay when your life is perfect but leave when you're at your lowest point.

What should I do..?

I'm broken..
I tell too many lies..
I lie so that they don't see me as pathetic.
I lie to cover my flaws.
I really don't have any self-confidence that I can't even be true to myself anymore.
Even I know, that if I were other people, I'd laugh my ass off witnessing such existence is still living and breathing the same air as me.

I'm really broken..
It's true what they say, the third time's the charm.
The third time I failed was what destroyed me.
My last shred of self-esteem disappeared completely.

And now, I must answer to my own lies.
When they know, it's guaranteed that they will judge me.
Even if they say they won't out of consideration, I'm sure they can't help it.
And I'm scared..

What should I do..?

So this is how it feels like to be in a friend zone.
I can't say this is the best thing.

I feel you all, brothers in the same situation.

I am scared.
I was blinded and didn't know what I had done.
I start to see again, but I've strayed from my path for too long now.

I am scared.
Somebody.. help me.
God..









..help me.

"What happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object?"

..and then, my head exploded.

"At some point, you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It's not like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be."

- Anonymous

I used to hear this quote all the time and I never really believed it.

" You will regret more for the things that you didn't do than for the things that you did do. "

..but then, it strikes me.

in·se·cu·ri·ty

ˌinsəˈkyo͝orədē/

noun

1. 1.

   uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.

   "she had a deep sense of insecurity"
2. 
   
3. 2.

   the state of being open to danger or threat; lack of protection.

   "growing job insecurity"

Everybody wants a good ending.
Sadly, not everyone can get one.

It is so painful to be the only one who loves, but isn't loved back.
I hate being on the receiving end of this game that life throws at me.

Is it really bad to wish for someone to love me enough that they can cry for me?