What should I do..?

I'm broken..
I tell too many lies..
I lie so that they don't see me as pathetic.
I lie to cover my flaws.
I really don't have any self-confidence that I can't even be true to myself anymore.
Even I know, that if I were other people, I'd laugh my ass off witnessing such existence is still living and breathing the same air as me.

I'm really broken..
It's true what they say, the third time's the charm.
The third time I failed was what destroyed me.
My last shred of self-esteem disappeared completely.

And now, I must answer to my own lies.
When they know, it's guaranteed that they will judge me.
Even if they say they won't out of consideration, I'm sure they can't help it.
And I'm scared..

What should I do..?